Pink Chocolatte

long time

2009-02-14T06:07:00.000-08:00

I've always wanted to write a blog...like daily updates but i'm so concern about my privacy.

it's better to keep a diary then to let the public view what you feel.
I can write a general blog, and i might keep some privacy matters in my book.

:)

maybe it's about time to keep the memories alive.
but not sure where to start....so i might just start talking nonsense and then take one step at a time :)

It's Sunday

2008-10-11T19:47:00.000-07:00

I'll make it a point to write a post every Sunday.
I suppose Sunday is like a free time for almost everyone. I like Sunday; it's the only day i can wake up late.

Sunday and Saturday will be the days i spend with my family and friends.

But today, i'm going to visit my grandmother's father's sister's daughter in Taman Seputeh 3 near MidValley. I have no idea whre it is but it is sort of a reunion thing; my grandma claims she hasn't met Josephine for almost 60 years (my grandma was born on 1929, mind you).

So I will get the pictures up soon.

In the mean time, I miss my dodoink!

I have a new blog!

2008-10-05T08:07:00.001-07:00

I haven't been an active user for this blog.
But i've decided to "try" to add more posts to make this blog useful. At the same time, i have a new blog called Diana: Life Is Great, focusing on my current job i'm pursuing (Great Eastern Life agent). So I do look forward to your kind support and hope to see you there!

Cheers

The Psychedelic experience- Part 2

2007-09-20T08:51:00.000-07:00

It's not all about drugs when it comes to psychedelic trance. Drugs would help to enhance the effect of listening to trance music but it's not necessary.

The reason why i relate trance music to drugs is because you have a choice to consume drugs while listening to trance music to feel the vibe and gives an amazing effect; this is just another way of looking at it. Drugs are not entirely harmful substances if used the right way, i.e. medicational purposes. Psilocybin mushrooms( magic mushrooms) are used to treat severe cluster headaches (cited in wikipedia.com).

According to my personal experience, I'm aware that most drugs produce side effects immediately or in a long run; depending on your body immune/cardiovascular system.
I'm not promoting drugs, i don't have to say the negative side of taking drugs. In fact, i don't have to take drugs to listen to trance music. I personally listen to psychedelic trance when im working out at the gym just to give me the motivation needed to continue my work out on the running belt. When i run and listening to trance, i feel motivated to push myself to run faster and for a longer period of time. Without music, the "excitement" to work out won't be as much.
I've been to clubs, and raves which i've seen people taking ecstacy, lsd, ice to enjoy themselves.

For one thing, alcohol and drugs give you a temporary high effect with consequences after the effect. Under the influence of those chemical substances, you may not be aware of your surroundings and turn against the reality; it's like you are in a different world. Some say, if you are shy, and if you take Chivas for example, you won't feel embarass to dance in the crowd, basically you'd feel more confident. The fact is, you just need to know how to dance so you have more confidence- not by consuming chemicals that are toxic to your body. Come to think of it, it's better when you are aware of your surroundings and you learn how to dance.

When i hit the clubs, my friends would ask, why you don't you have some...they'd offer to smoke weed, to take ecstasy, but to me, there's no point because i don't get to feel what actually is going on around me. When i do go for parties, i like to observe the crowd, learn a few steps, enjoy the music, and i don't have to look silly if i take JD coke; I would look stupid if i do because I'm not aware of what i'm saying or doing, and so i won't enjoy my time there. Another reason being would be, i'm proud of myself for not having to do what others would normally do to be/look cool. I feel proud/ have a sense of respect to myself when I don't get involved in drugs; personally, I feel people around you would respect you more if you know how to control/respect/take care of yourself.

There are lists of side-effects of using drugs/ consuming alcohol that i don't have to mention. I value myself as important, respect myself and love myself. Love yourself first before you love someone else- sounds a bit selfish there but to my interpretation, if you have a healthy mind, body and soul, you'll make the best out of yourself. I love to challenge myself and i know it's very easy for me to be part of the party lifestyle, but the hardest is to stay away from alcohol and drugs- and that's a challenge for me. So once i overcome it, i feel a sense of relief, pride, and as if i won a fight (i might sound silly but that's how i feel).

Psychedelic trance party, is just another party for psychedelic fans and it's upto you to choose how you want to lead your life. Life is better when it's real and it's not all about alcohol and drugs; it's all in your mind. The power of mind let's you control what you want to feel, how you want to feel. If you listen to psychedelic trance with your friends, appreciate and understand the meaning of the psychedelic music and the psychedelic art- that is the real understanding of psychedelic trance. Learn the history, the content, the fundamental values of pyschedelic art and the combined interpretation of psychedelic art and music; these are the important elements towards understanding the different levels of psychedelic experience.

Till then.

History of Psychedelic Trance http://perso.orange.fr/psychedelic_trance/psy_history_part1.htm

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q9wxkHtRT58

A psychedelic experience

2007-09-15T20:35:00.000-07:00

Heya folks!
It's been a while since i published post ( 3 months ago...)
You must be wondering why after 3 months and why the title? I'd like to dedicate this article to DJ Mushroom who introduced me to psychedelic trance. Most of my findings were taken from wikipedia.com., drugababuse.gov., and mescaline.org. Psychedelic trance is most common in rave parties; not common yet among Malaysians.

The term psychedelic is known to be hallucinogens, psychosis (loss contact of reality) and altered state of consciousness.

As for trance, there have been many definitions of trance as interpreted by various researchers. Trance is an altered state of consciousness- used by hypnotherapist/psychologist to create mental, emotional, spiritual healing.

When it comes to trance music, as you listen to some of the tracks, your mind will be wondering around some out of space that brings you to a different world- subject to whether trance is your favourite music :P

A state of trance is where you feel ecstatic; it could be from religious rituals, meditation, yoga, sufism, music, dancing, cannabis, magic mushrooms, etc.

Trance music/ electronic music is originated back in the 90's; it is a repeating melodic synthesizer, phrases and musical form. Instruments used are synthesizer, keyboard, drum machine, sequencer, and sampler. It is originated from Germany, Netherlands, Belgium, and UK. There are lots of artists that are related to theorigin of trance. Then comes the progressive trance which is more of drum and bass with pioneer producers like Tiesto, Armin Van Buuren, Paul van Dyk, Oakenfold, to name a few. Then it hits the mainstream and most notable recording company was the ministry of sound. Trance music is BPM 130-150 per minute, faster than house music but slower than rave.

There are many types of trance music, namely:
1) Acid Trance/ambient trance/chill trance (Banco De Gaia)
2) Anthem Trance/uplifting trance/epic trance (Tiesto, Buuren, ATB)
3) Buchiage Trance (Arpeggio)
4) Classic Trance (Sven Vath)
5) Dream Trance/Dream House (Robert Miles)
6) Euro Trance (Cascada)
7) Electro Trance (Gabriel&Dresden)
8) Future Pop (Icon of Coil)
9) Goa Trance (Yahel Sherman)
10)Hardstyle (Scot Project, Hennes & Cold)
11)Ibiza Trance/Balearic House (Chicane, Cafe del mar)
12)Pizzicato Trance (Sash!, DJ Quicksilver)
13)Progressive Trance/Melodic Trance (Sasha, Faithless)
14)Psychedelic Trance (Infected Mushroom, Skazi)
15)Tech Trance (L.S.G., Darude)
16)Vocal Trance (Buuren, Chicane, Van Dahl)

Best known trance festivals in the world are in Netherlands.

Drugs (to name a few):
Trance/rave parties are known for recreational drugs like alcohol, cocaine, LSD, Cannabis and psychoactive drugs which are a chemical substance that sets on the central nervous system where it changes the brain functions that result in altered perception, mental consciousness, and behaviour; they are primarily used as medication.

Club drugs:
1) MDMA (ecstasy 3-4 methylenedioxymethamphetamine)- it regulates body temperature, not known to be addictive as far as im concern, it can results in liver, kidney, and cardiovascular system failure.It gives psychological effect like confusion, depression, sleep problems, drug cravings, and severe anxiety that occurs days/weeks after consumption.

GHB, Ketamine, Rohypnol- colorless, tasteless, odorless, used as date-rape drugs.
2) GHB (Gamma Hydroxybutyrate, croach), used mostly by body builders to reduce fat and increase muscle mass, and also to treat alcoholism and depression. It as also known as Liquid Ecstasy, Easy-Lay, to name a few.

3) Ketamine- also known as Special K, Vitamin K, it can be injected, or smoked (the high effect hits faster). It is also known as Monkey Mix or Monkey Business when mixed with Cocaine and MDMA. It gives hallucinatory effects that last upto 15 minutes and total experience(high) that lasts to 2 hours.

4)Rohypnol- when mixed with alcohol, the individual can't remember events they experience under the drug influence.

5)Methamphetamine (speed/meth), methamphetamine hydrocholoride (ice,crystal- to smoke): Function - increased libido (increase need for sex, enabling prolonged sexual activities, 6x less likely to use condom),euphoria (very high state of happiness) and is addictive. Chocolate dosed with meth is called Fliegerschokolade/Panzerschokolade.

6)LSD (Lysergic Acis Diethylamide): gives you mood swings, flashbacks, hallucinations- distortion of reality, see images, hear sounds and feel sensations that seem real but don't exist. It is not addictive but produce tolerance if taken repeteadly- must increase dosage to achieve the same level of intoxications as before.

Addictive drugs are namely cocaine, amphetamine, heroin, morphine, methamphetamine

Now then, let's go to the most important part of what the case study is all about.

Psychedelic Trance
It emerged after Goa Trance in 1990's, originated in UK, Israel, Goa (India), and South africa.

Goa Trance is discovered in Goa, India, known as a music that is developed as a spiritual culture. During the 1990's, a lot of tourist and hippies came to Goa, India.Goa Gil (a hippie)is a pioneer of Goa Trance, alongside Laurent, Fred Disko, to name a few. The goal of Goa Trance is to have organic/cybernetic sound (psychedelic sound)and this sound is especialy good on psychedelic drugs, namely magic mushrooms, LSD, mescaline, LSA, Ayahuasca, MDMA, 2C-B, DOM, 5-MeO-DIPT, and Cannabis.

Psychedelic drugs create enhancement of the overall social and musical experience.Goa parties are usually held at unusual places like in the middle of the forest, and beaches; it is decorated with fluorescent paint, graphics of aliens, Hinduism, Shamanism, Mushroom, psychedelic imagery, and technology ( there is no wonder that Goa Trance can be prohibited in Malaysia).

Psychedelic mushroom/psilocybin/shrooms/magic mushroom/hallucinogen mushroom
-used as a shamanic/medical treatment
-recreational drugs
-results in muscular tiredness, exhaustion, relaxation, visual hallucinations, visualisation of colours upon hearing sounds( pouring water can be extremely visually stimulating), laughing for the duration of psychedelic experience, increased abilities to concentrate on memories,can concentrate on stressful matters/results in bad trip, lose touch of reality which can be intense and frustation occurs when lack of proper words to describe the experience.

Lastly, Mescaline, found in cactus species such as Peyote (discovered in Mexico) and San Pedro (discovered in Andes Mountain region of South America. It gives hallucinations effect, uncontrollable laughter, and psychedelic experience (altered state of consciousness, psychosis), euphoria. The cost of production is expensive because to produce a psychedelic trip, it needs 1/2 gram of mescaline sulfate= 2500 doses of LSD, it ranges from $100-$200 per gram (too expensive to become a popular drug)cited in mescaline.org, its hallucinations effect lasts upto 12 hours.

Now then. That was a brief case study, and for those who haven't tried out, just give it a shot, though im not encouraging it, but it's worth a try as mescaline, shrooms and LSD are non-addictive drugs and for those who love psychedelic trance, the experience is an unbelievable one! given a chance, yeah, I'll be gone to South America, Goa and Europe to experience the difference with the all-natural chemical substances :P

UVNation 2007

2007-06-09T21:49:00.002-07:00

9.6.07
I had my hair done, just flat-ioning. Was wearing white top and jeans, with heavy make-up. The party started at 6pm at one utama rooftop carpark. I came around 9.30 pm. I had to wait in a long queue at the main entrance.I was offered a can of beer, but i don't drink. I came alone, my friends were there later. It was different than the last rave i went for (Tiesto), as it was held at rooftop carpark. The area was divided into two; the first area was the Urban room, more of RnB and some mixture of retro and rock sound. It was located in the carpark, which looked funny, but a different concept i would say. Then i walked my way to the main arena; they were bars, fast-food joint, tables for people who'd like to chill with alcohol beverages, and shops selling glow-in-the-dark bands. I saw lots of local kids (say around 16-21 years old) and some foreigners. I walked to the front stage, squeezed in between people who were shuffling, drinking, making so much noise, and they were all sweaty...and some wore shades which looked good on them. Some guys were topless, while the girls wore skimpy clothes; i was hoping to see them naked :P

Anyway. I reached the main stage, right in front of the speakers, it was freaking loud! Joey G was the host for the event. I missed Altered Image, DJ Desire was spinning at that time, she's alright. To me, it was kind of boring. I met a friend from KDU College, Loai, I asked him to take pictures because my phone's battery was low. Then the moment everyone was waiting for, Benny Benassi has finally arrived! But i was quite dissapointed because the had some technical problems for about 10 minutes; while waiting, a girl was carried out because she couldn't breathe. Later on, Benny started off with smooth beats, followed by hard house. Imagine, having to stand in front of the stage, the bass was mad! There were couple of hot
dancers on stage dancing to the beat; man, they have nice legs and body! Well, just 2 of them that I've noticed. I couldn't move around that much as I was squeezed like tuna in a can! But i couldn't care much. Benny played music that I've never heard of and it was wicked! Oh by the way, I was clean throughout the whole event! Care to believe me? No E's, no booze, no weed (damn)! Everyone was actually waiting for Benny to play Satisfaction, well I think he came here before at the Revelation party in Port Dickson, and he must've played that before, still, that song still a one hit wonder, so he played it towards the end of his session.

I was so thirsty, i walked out from the main stage; another "ex-squeeze me" out. On my way, I saw couple of friends from KDU College; i hooked up with them for a while, then decided to get water because i couldn't stand it!And of course at that time, Benassi ended his session; Bass Agent took over. I thought I could skip it for a bit. I feel so dehydrated. Then i bought an Evian for RM10 when i could get it for free from the ticket! Silly me. Then I went to see my other bunch of friends back at the Urban area. They were high on substances, happy for some reason, which was alright to me :) I danced for a while at the Urban area, not as crowded as the main area. Junio Hustle was the host, but I'm not sure who was spinning the deck. There were supposed to be Stylustiks, Ben Cracko, Blink and Goldfish. It was alright; I like the main arena better :)

Now here's the best 1 hour i had in my life. I went back to the main arena, with my friends. When we reached the place, Praba lifted me up on his shoulders! I find it hard to balance it at first, I was so scared of falling down, but I could see the whole area of 5000 people! Whoa! Crazy! Then he walked up near the stage, and this time the UVNation crews sprayed water from the hose to the crowd, including me and I was soaking wet! Now my hair is not straight anymore; bye-bye RM20! It was awesome because he carried me around the crowd and I could see people were just having so much fun dancing, screaming, waving their hands up in the air, for 20 minutes!

UVNation 2007

2007-06-09T21:49:00.001-07:00

Samsons: Bukan diriku

2007-06-08T21:37:00.000-07:00

This song...really touched my heart, it's about loving someone when you know it's not meant to be.

Setelah kupahami
Ku bukan yang terbaik
Yang ada di hatimu
Tak dapat kusangsikan
Ternyata dirinyalah
Yang mengerti kamu
Bukanlah diriku

Kini maafkanlah aku
Bila ku menjadi bisu
Kepada dirimu

Bukan santunku terbungkam
Hanya hatiku berbatas
Tuk mengerti kamu
Maafkanlah aku

Walau kumasih mencintaimu
Kuharus meninggalkanmu
Kuharus melupakanmu
Meski hatiku menyayangimu
Nurani membutuhkanmu
Kuharus merelakanmu

Dan hanyalah dirimu
Yang mampu memahamiku
Yang dapat mengerti aku

Ternyata dirinyalah
Yang sanggup menyanjungmu
Yang lama menyentuhmu
Bukanlah diriku

Heya, folks! Some catching ups here

2007-05-31T09:00:00.000-07:00

It's been a while since i last "blogged" .
I noticed my blogs can get really melancholic.
Oh well. It's a piece of mind.
Anyway.
As i was saying, it's been a while and a lot of things have happened along the way.
Here are some highlights:
1) Someone dear to my heart is leaving to Mauritius; i'm not sure when. We've known each other for more than a year now, we've grown closer each day, but somehow we knew right from the beginning that we're not going to be together for a long time. We agreed that long-distance relationship will not work with us. So i come to realise that people come and go, i can't expect everything to go my way; everything happens for a reason and the reason would make me stronger.
2) I've been working with KDU College for 3 weeks now as a marketing executive. This job has been less stressful than my previous job with True Fitness, though i've gained a lot of valuable experience as a fitness consultant. I personally feel the job doesn't fit me well. For one good reason, i've been studying in KDU for 4 years since 2003 and I've known most of the staff and senior students there. So the environment is just right for me; i'm working with a strong team and i think i'd do well here, though i'm open to higher pay options :P
3) To Radzeef...you owe me lunch at Nando's! See Radzeef here...he's my grandma's brother's son's wife's brother (my distant cousin, i would say). So i don't have anyone to accompany me to watch Pirates 3 (btw it was 3 hours long and the movie is funny, i like pirates 2 better) and i had to pay for the tickets because he was broke . Sheesh. But it's ok, he ain't heavy, he's my distant cousin :P Review on Pirates 3, well, overall it was ok, i only like the Johnny Depp part :P To my surprise, i finally met Miriam by accident! (Miriam, Shin Yee and Daenielle were my close buddies back in 2003-2004, we were classmates and they were top students! sadly, i couldn't keep up with their level of intelligence!) So Miri, we shall catch up once you get back from your Thailand-Cambodia trip, and hope to see your "south-american" boyfriend..heheheh...oh and as promised, we'll go to Qba to salsa!

That's it for now. I want to sleep. I'm working tomorrow (and saturday)....and i hope to go to Qba tomorrow though. Oh forgot to mention, my aunts are all here for holidays...now i have to take them out. Haiyoh...

Cheers

Happy Mother's Day

2007-05-13T07:07:00.000-07:00

I didn't do much today, i just bought my mum a blouse and glad that she likes it. She wore it today to my cousin's engagement at Setapak.

Then later at night, i wrote her a simple note to tell her how much she means to me:

Mak,
Today is the day to appreciate mothers, although to me, mothers should be appreciated everyday, But today, and not everyday that i get to tell you how special you are to me.

Firstly, i say thank you for everything that you've done for me because without you mak, i wouldn't be as fat, as beautiful, as healthy as i am today.

I know sometimes you can get really stressful, but you've never complained how much sacrifices you made just to keep me and aidiel happy.

Didi rasa sangat bertuah kerana dilahirkan dengan mak dan ayah and bersyukur kerana kalau dibandingkan dengan anak-anak yatim piatu, mereka dibesarkan tanpa ibubapa, dan hari ini, didi masih mempunyai mak yang sangat penyayang.

Didi minta maaf seandainya didi tidak dapat mengawal kelakuan didi yang adakalanya keterlaluan, tetapi dengan kasih sayang mak dan tok, didi will not dissappoint you because you taught me well. And for that, i can't thank you enough.

Sometimes i can be so disobedient to you, i know someday my children could end up like me and when the time comes, i want you to be there to give me the support i need. I know when i don't listen to you, i will face the consequences, i did, and it took a while for me to understand why you can be so harsh on me, at times. Mistakes are made for me to grow stronger and be where i am today.

Mak, you will always be my superwoman and i can never ever find someone to replace you. Happy mother's day.

Bailando Bachata!

2007-05-06T07:41:00.000-07:00

I was browsing for video clips and i came across bachata dance clips...these 3 clips are really worth watching! i was like wow, speechless! The couple look so good together! Actually 4 clips! Wow. I'm out of words, so sexy and graceful!

Askmen.com

2007-05-06T00:18:00.000-07:00

I've discovered this website long time ago. I thought i could have a clue about understanding men's point of view, well, majority men's point of view. The first that caught my interest was the top 99 women list. I'm looking at the women which are in the top 5, 5- Jessica Biel(i didn't know much about her), 4-Adrianna Lima (oh man, she's my favourite model since like 3 years ago!)3- Jessica Alba (hot...sexy) 2-Scarlett Johansson (she's ok..yeah) no 1 is Beyonce (gorgeous!)But wait, Aishwarya Rai is at no.40? Well, sorry guys :P She's undeniably attractive and claimed as the most beautiful face, beautiful woman.

Forget about the website. my favourite women are Aishwarya Rai, Angelina Jolie, Adrainna Lima and Beyonce because i like to look at them again and again and again! And yes i'm straight.

About me

2007-05-04T00:00:00.000-07:00

Pictures do most of the description! I love taking pictures. You'd get to know my surroundings,the people I'm with or used to be with (hehehe) . Getting the right words to explain about myself has not been my favourite activity :) so here it is, some taste of chocolates and lattes!

First stop, True Fitness PJ. I was part of the family from Jan 07 till Mac 07. So many unforgettable memories and valuable experience for a short period of time, i would say.

Next, my recent shoot, actually my first time being an extra for an upcoming local drama called salsamuay, thanks to Ronny for calling me a day before the shoot starts! Overall, it was fun working with the crews! I made new friends and learned some acting skills :P

Well...that's all for now. I'll take more pictures soon!

Hi, Welcome!

2007-05-03T23:28:00.000-07:00

This is my new blog! Can't wait to post a lot of updates so stay tune!